Poem: Goodbye

Pulling this one from the archives. I wrote this poem when I was 13 and it is all the more relevant still today especially after losing Keith, my best friend, so suddenly on Saturday to a stroke. I miss you Keith, always will. I know you weren't all that sure about your faith in God, or at least in the Catholic church, but this is relevant anyway.

Goodbye

I see you hurting, I see you cry

I remember all the times we had together

And I hope you will cherish the memories forever

It was my time, I had to say goodbye.

I left so many behind when I had to die

I want you to know I love you all

You can talk to me still, easier than a phone call

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

I'm sorry for every single lie

I apologize to those I hurt

And to those I treated like dirt

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

You will always remember me and with grief sadly sigh

But please don't be burdened with times of sorrow

I wish you the happiest times, today and tomorrow

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

Now I am free, God taught me how to fly

A friendship shared, a joke, a laugh, a kiss

Yes, these things with all of my heart, I will miss

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

It was hard, when I left this world, to say goodbye

for everyone who loved me or talked to

But I want you to know that I love you

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

Now I am living beyond the sky

But please don't grieve for me

I'm with God now, he set me free

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

You're sadness is understandable, don't be shy

Please don't grieve for me for now I'm free

I am following the path God laid for me

It was my time, I had to say goodbye

(c) June 2000

Random Things About Me

TEN Random things about me
1. I love to write
2. I am a girl
3. I think I know when I don't
4. I can wiggle my ears
5. I love music
6. I wanted my belly button pierced
7. I love movies
8. I don't remember much of kindergarden.
9. I don't know where life will lead me
10. I love you

NINE places I’ve visited
1. Montana
2. Ellis Island
3. Liberty Island
4. Philly
5. Greece
6. Italy
7. Indianapolis
8. South Dakota
9. Georgia

EIGHT things I want to do before I die
1. travel Europe
2. travel South America
3. marry
4. publish a book
5. go to Disney Land/World for the 1st time
6. adopt a child
7. Make a difference in someone’s life
8. accomplish all my goals

SEVEN ways to win my heart
1. realize that I'm more insecure than I appear to be
2. be determined to win my heart and work to keep it
3. take a genuine interest in me
4. get to know me better
5. accept the fact that I will never act my age.
6. play catch with me or have a snowball fight with me
7. make sure I like u first

SIX things I believe in

1. true love
2. looking on the bright side of things
3. everything happens for a reason, just don't question it too much
4. destiny and fate.
5. happiness
6. Faith

FIVE things I’m afraid of
1. centipedes
2. breaking a bone
3. needles/anything sharp
4. suffocating
5. not being successful

FOUR of my favorite items in my apartment
1. My CD and movie collection
2. my blankets
3. posters
4. photo albums

THREE things I do everyday
1. smile
2. brush my teeth
3. Breathe

TWO things I am trying not to do right now
1. worry about money
2. Procrastinate

ONE person I want to see right now
1. You

March Revival

I never understood love until I met you
and I was never in love until I met you
I never dreamed of being in love like I am with you
and when we were together I never dreamed I'd ever love anyone else

I learned a lot about love from you
and a lot about hearts
I've learned a lot about dreams
And a lot about time changing things

and somehow, since you've been gone,
this time around,
I can breathe again
somehow
I can dream again of other things
And understand, without too much pain,
that time will change
and just because we want it to be
doesn't necessarily mean we'll be together forever.

I’ve learned that
time has changed us, and always will
it's inevitable

And we can’t control time or love
though time will never change my love for you
©5 March 2005

8 March 2007

lives change

dreams drift away

guilt consumes me

stress overcomes my mind

concentration is nonexistent

so many distractions

as the words attempt to appear

out of the cloudy thoughts in my mind

pen to paper

mind to matter

and the concentration continues to waive

I look up and once again

our eyes meet and soon…

nothing else matters.

Impression (15 March 2007)

Closer to God

and comfortable with myself…

A stress free life

leads me to believe I need

to change something

Something’s telling me

to take a load off

clear things off my plate

re-evaluate the important things in my life

And I have discovered that you are

                and so is HE

school and family mean so much

so much more than work

What does that say about me?

What does that tell you about the kind of person that I am?

15 March 2007

So many pages, so little time

so little inspiration

the thoughts linger in my mind

the feelings exist

the words slowly appear before me.

With great difficulty

I attempt to express

the love that I feel

the happiness within

and the confusion, the frustration

that constantly lingers

somewhere in the cobwebs

                of my clouded mind